39

I haven't posted in a while.  It's been a busy few months and I really haven't moved forward with any home projects worth sharing.  I turned 39 on Friday and I remembered that I wanted to document my birthday wish lists so I'm vowing to start up again beginning with this year's wishes.

I looked at last year's  list and realized that over the year I acquired 6 out of the 10 things. Not bad right? Item #9, the Flor carpet tiles were my gift for this birthday.  Like every other project in this house it spurred another project which I'll talk about later.  Who knew just simply putting carpet tiles down could cause more home destruction?

So, this year, this is what I want:
  1. Gravel for front yard landscaping
  2. More plants for front yard landscaping
  3. Steel edging
  4. Galvanized tank (smallish) for an outdoor water fountain and fish tank.
  5. Two more sculptural trees (can't think of their names but Dave calls them Dr. Seuss trees)
  6. Paid labor to help me tear out the front lawn
  7. Acapulco chairs for our back patio
  8. Time with a power washer
  9. Newly painted house
  10. Time with a table saw
For me personally, there's only one thing I want: a baby.  Last July I posted that I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks.  I never wrote about it because that was the third and last miscarriage of the year. We decided to take a break after the loss. It affected us all quite heavily and I just didn't feel like writing on the subject.  We're trying again but I'm also starting to accept what God and the universe have given me. I have a daughter whose quite amazing; not just by my standards (of course) but by every teacher, doctor, friend and stranger who meet her.  I'm starting to think of all the benefits of having just one child. More money for home projects. More travel. Better wardrobe, better everything.  However, in my heart of hearts I'd like one more; for me, for my daughter and for my husband.  

I use to think women who tried to have children at 40 were nuts.  Well, I have two months before I end up delivering at 40 and I'll have to eat my words. I should have known better.  Never say never.   





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Saturday, March 12, 2011

39

I haven't posted in a while.  It's been a busy few months and I really haven't moved forward with any home projects worth sharing.  I turned 39 on Friday and I remembered that I wanted to document my birthday wish lists so I'm vowing to start up again beginning with this year's wishes.

I looked at last year's  list and realized that over the year I acquired 6 out of the 10 things. Not bad right? Item #9, the Flor carpet tiles were my gift for this birthday.  Like every other project in this house it spurred another project which I'll talk about later.  Who knew just simply putting carpet tiles down could cause more home destruction?

So, this year, this is what I want:
  1. Gravel for front yard landscaping
  2. More plants for front yard landscaping
  3. Steel edging
  4. Galvanized tank (smallish) for an outdoor water fountain and fish tank.
  5. Two more sculptural trees (can't think of their names but Dave calls them Dr. Seuss trees)
  6. Paid labor to help me tear out the front lawn
  7. Acapulco chairs for our back patio
  8. Time with a power washer
  9. Newly painted house
  10. Time with a table saw
For me personally, there's only one thing I want: a baby.  Last July I posted that I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks.  I never wrote about it because that was the third and last miscarriage of the year. We decided to take a break after the loss. It affected us all quite heavily and I just didn't feel like writing on the subject.  We're trying again but I'm also starting to accept what God and the universe have given me. I have a daughter whose quite amazing; not just by my standards (of course) but by every teacher, doctor, friend and stranger who meet her.  I'm starting to think of all the benefits of having just one child. More money for home projects. More travel. Better wardrobe, better everything.  However, in my heart of hearts I'd like one more; for me, for my daughter and for my husband.  

I use to think women who tried to have children at 40 were nuts.  Well, I have two months before I end up delivering at 40 and I'll have to eat my words. I should have known better.  Never say never.   





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Anonymous cat@flutterbymama said...

Hi there, I've just come across your blog and after reading this post I totally empathise with you. I've never seen myself as a one child mum but my husband was never keen on more than one but after 3 years of trying to persuade him he's actually turned a corner. He realised I wanted another more than he didn't want another. To persuade me he had seriously changed his views he gave me a gift of baby onesies as he knew just words wouldn't have cut it. So all this was decided 5/6 weeks ago and we would start trying in May, I want a summer baby if I have a choice. So at 39, in a week, I will be not quite 40 when bub arrives, fingers crossed all goes well. So great news!!!!

Not so easy...my hubs business partner has had a relapse of non hodgkins lymphoma one week after our decision and needs to pull out of the business which means quite a complicated buy out process and also the worry of losing a friend to a horrible illness. If only we'd made the decision a few months ago or a year ago and we wouldn't be here now.

Unfortunately we would feel irresponsible to just carry on with our plans regardless so for now the plans are on hold until we have things a little more sorted. Positives come from bad so I hope it all works out.

I've not been in the unfortunate situation of having a miscarriage although my close friend has and my mum lost 3 also.

I'm blessed with one amazing son who's almost 4 and an absolute delight and I'm a very lucky mum already. To have another would be a true blessing but we already have a wonderful family.

My thoughts are with you and I really hope it does happen for you. (Sorry to prattle on) : )

March 22, 2011 at 2:13 AM

 
Blogger krisel keeper said...

Cat,
Thanks so much for your words and for prattling on. :) it's a subject matter that deserves to be heard and it was lovely to read your story. Lovely in only that you seem to be going through the same thing as myself, but in a different way. The feelings seem to be the same. I hope the second child comes to you. I hope a working solution happens for your family. And I hope my body comes through for me once again. Many, many thanks for sharing!!! My thoughts are with you as well.

March 22, 2011 at 9:32 PM

 

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